About me (longer version)

As the new Millenia approached, I was outwardly quite successful, a respected physician and director of our counties emergency medical services for over a decade. On the inside however, my life was an grinding endurance contest, and I used alcohol to keep everything together. Eventually things fell apart, and I found myself in a treatment center with enforced sobriety. Fortunately, this provided a moment of clarity, and I suddenly began to listen to those around me offering new ideas and strategies for living. I came to realize that I did not have an alcohol problem. In fact, I had an alcohol solution, and the real problem was my constant need to change the way I felt. I also came to believe that I have a medical condition that prevents me from being able to successfully inhibit use of alcohol and other chemicals once they have entered my system. I have termed this medical condition “chemically mediated disinhibition syndrome. “ This is not a diagnosis that is found in any medical textbook at this time, but does explain the nature of the abnormal relationship with alcohol that I have witnessed in countless individuals and experienced myself. I believe that it is not my fault that I have this condition however, it is my responsibility to acknowledge it and unacceptable for me controlling my drinking means not starting. . As a result of accepting this beliefs, I realized that for me to live a successful and fulfilling second act of my life, that life could not include alcohol. I am now in the 28th year of this sober second act of my life and have been given the freedom to live authentically. Life goes on and there are bad days. But I am a truly different man than I was three decades ago, and have the tools to live life successfully in at peace. However, I am greedy and want more so I But I am a truly different man than I was three decades ago, and have the tools to live life successfully in at peace. However, I am greedy and want more so I continue to try to hone my skills and learn better ways to grow into the person I want to become. I have found that sharing this journey with others has made it more enjoyable, and hope to be part of your journey.